生活

生活是什么？
是上帝在嘲笑
命运在玩弄
生命在讽刺

不在乎

我知道有些事情并不容易但我会继续努力，

在乎一个人的感觉的确很甜蜜却也很痛苦，

如果我还能找到一个令我在乎你而不痛苦的方法，

或许我就不会做出了这么样的一个选择...

我会学着不去在乎你的短信，

不会每天等你的短息等到不会睡觉，

不会每天发一些你不会回复我的短信，

也不会再为了你不回复我和你争吵了...

我会学着不去在乎你记不记得了，

不记得我几时生日也没关系，

不记得我的电话号码也没关系，

不记得什么时候该找我也没关系...

我会学着不去在乎你身边有着谁，

和异性一起出门也没关系，

和异性聊电到半夜也没关系,

和异性搞搞暧昧也没关系...

学着不去在乎你手机里的人是谁，

学着不去在乎你和谁一起聊电话，

学着不去在乎有关你的一切事与物，

或许这样的不在乎才能让自己好过，

或许这样的不在乎已经不再是爱了，

不是就不是吧，因为你也不在乎我是否在乎...

如果你也在乎我的感受，

就不会让我有那么多的在乎了,

我吃醋因为我在乎，

我生气因为我在乎，

我在乎因为我爱你...

如果有一天你察觉到我对你的不在乎，

你不要慌也不要忙，

因为我不在乎不表示我已经不再爱你了，

只是你对我的不在乎,

已经让我学会如何更爱我自己了...

我想我会学着不去在乎，

不是因为不再爱你，

而是先学会如何爱护我自己...

If

“If you knew what was going to happen, if you knew everything that was going to happen next - if you knew in advance the consequences of your own actions - you’d be doomed. You’d be as ruined as God. You’d be a stone. You’d never eat or drink or laugh or get out of bed in the morning. You’d never love anyone, ever again. You’d never dare to.”

— Margaret Atwood

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qoute

“Many couples, many people, are not living with real human beings, but with their ghosts. Who has not followed for years the spell of a particular tone of voice, from voice to voice, as the fetishist follows a beautiful foot, scarcely seeing the woman herself? A voice, a mouth, an eye, all stemming from the original fountain of our first desire, directing it, enslaving us, until we choose to unravel the fatal web and free ourselves.”

—Anaïs Nin

Belief

For this once, im will belief

.

mind

i have a mind so powerful that one day it would destroy everything, including me


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害怕

其实， 我还是怕
我害怕 这一切会是个陷阱

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unknown

it started with an unknown, and its going to end with an unknown

.

about understanding

doesnt understand anymore

.

about my mind

mind
i have a mind
born with a mind
gifted with a mind
a deadly mind

so deadly that
one day
it could destroy things
anything
everything

even me myself

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about thinking

dont think


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那个字

因为我害怕
对那个字
对那黑暗
的无底洞

我已有了恐惧
也开始不相信
那个字

这是我迟疑的原因


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aaaaa

means aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...!


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one

"Once its gone and one has failed to grasp its offered revelation, there is no second chance . One may have to live the rest of one's life in hopeless depths of loneliness and remorse. In that twilight world, one can no longer look forward to anything. All that such person holds in his hands is the withered corpse of what should have been.'




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end

have you
anyone of you
ever thought of

an end
an end of the end

picture of the day

An image taken at Changi broadwalk by one of my friend, Martin edison lim. I love this shot, the mood and elements it has. Btw, that thing behind is a huge rock! in the middle of the beach, like some alien planted it there.

the waiting

sometimes
we have to stop
and wait

for the right moment
for the right flow
for life

used

things we left behind after
......

semi-fishermen

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cleanse you heart
cleanse you soul

feel the space
the simple maze

Inspired by japanese art style.Clean, neat and minimal is what you often see in japanese arts.

like father like son

Brunei!

Im backkk! in this country where 512 'kbps' still exist lol,net speed sucks like hell hell.Took light years to upload one picture.Well things are pretty much similiar as last time since im gone.Friends,are pretty much similiar too.Maybe no changes isnt a bad thing too,classic.But,its still nice to be back =)

but there's one bad news,people seems to be so dispersed already,which sucks. yea you guys sucks LOL we should have a reunion!

was inside the plane

it was raining when i reach bru

went to the pasar malam with kyew and ah5,we ate chicken butt and popia (chicken butt is a food,yes its edible)

and guess who is this!

winnie camwhore with my iphone,and that object in the previous pic isnt her.



and some views outside my house

17th june 2010

While waiting for my friend i...

shot me legs and gazed at the view in front.

GOOD NEWS!! IM GOING BACK TOMMORROW! =D

kodak tri-x

my first film test on the kodak tri-x! film is still so amazing,they really never fails to amaze me.

can view more of em at facebook or flickr

street with dslr

Firstly,it feels so wrong and uncomfortable to shoot streets with a dslr.The feeling isnt right,dlsr is big,bulky,loud and grabs attentions!Nothing can beat the feeling of shooting with a rangefinder loaded with film(well of course,rangefinders which is digital cost at least 4k for a 2nd hand body,the leica m8) film is indeed..a legacy.Okay,i actually went to school for the grad exhibition but it closed on mondays == so i went roaming around with my dslr.

fortune teller,most of the time they tell you how to spend your money on them

there's 2 stories happening over here,look for youself.

nice way to sit

eye-ing for his prey

deciding on which car to buy,or to dream

sometimes you dont need to talk in order to communicate

this baby!reminds me of stewie(an evil baby from family guy) because he wont stop looking at me and my friend

chilling with starbucks coffee,one of the best moment in life.Actually i wanted to change the settings in order to have the coffee in focus as well but he changed his posture already.

left:"what are we looking for again?"
right:"hmm..."

and before we were about to leave mac,i caught someone in action!

well thats all for today.hope you guys enjoy=)

frustrated cook

"haiii~sien,i dont want to cook anymore.."

film

Film is..a legacy.Although digital has occupied around 90% of the market nowadays but still,there are something in film that can never be replaced by digital,ever.I still remember the feeling when i first saw those pictures developed from my first film roll,that feeling,i cannot explain.Its..beautiful,truely beautiful.So..i just collected those pictures from my 3rd roll of film,the Fuji tungsten T64 expired + cross-processed.Here are the pictures..

This uncle was trying to finish the stack of flyers in his hand but almost everyone ignored him,until this little girl appears and accepted the paper with a smile.

The stone bench at Raffles place,an ideal location for a couple to chill and relax(provided if the weather isnt hot like hell)

"wah!"

Shaolin FS
i like this image very much,it has the characteristics of him.If anyone of you wanted to ask,thats his name in fb.

Martin Edison Lim

thats a special effect,kids please dont learn

*snaps! oh dear,someone seems to notice me.*whistle and act like nothing happen while looking away

He seems to be lost.Do you think so? well, i think so.


The roadside ice-cream stall
There are a lot of ice cream stalls along the street in sg.They sells ice-cream in a cuboid form,you can either have biscuits or bread with it,also can be in a cup.

All images are shot with Canonet QL17 GIII + Fuji tungsten T64 expired + xpro
All rights reserved

more @ facebook

You

you!
yes you!
who are you!
what are you!
what did you do!
to make me feel
this confuse!

confuse!
confuse !
im confuse!
with you!

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Lower Seletar Resevior

I actually wake up at 5am for a shoot! o.o amazing much,even i myself cant believe i will wake up early in the bloody morning for a shooting i described as boring and dead lol.But im satisfy with the pictures so its worth it.Thank god it didnt rain if not i would have set up fireworks to wake up the gods already.Enjoy~

twilight

moment i cannot miss
time i cannot run
life i cannot believe
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more of em at my facebook

some street

fuck landscape fuck still life fuck night scene fuck set ups fuck those dead and boring macro or whatever objects.I`m kinda bored over those kind shots already.Its always the same,they are always there ,they are so dead.Dead dead dead objects,are boring== Now what get me interested is..street phorography! An art of documentation,an art of human life.Let me share some shots of mine taken through iphone.

i cannot escape

fate i cannot escape
destiny i cannot run

destinied and fated
created and merged
to form ...

life

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a different life

have you thought
have anyone thought
anyone of you,anyone of you
thought
that life can be different
that one day you will feel
one day
deep in your heart you feel
that life can be different

One day when you stepped out of your nest,you see a different world
a wonderful world.

Revived!

I guess?? well as long as im free(in fact i am,very) i will still blog,but for this time it will be more towards personal thoughts and whatever rubbish i have in my mind.Many thanks to my loyal readers,or maybe you guys are bored out of the universe as well.If you realized,i`ve changed my blog title and the image used.Tho the previous one is funny(thanks to jasmine for that) but its time to have a change already.

That picture was taken yesterday while we`re walking down the road of punggol ave 17th,it was raining== can you imagine it rains in a nice blue sky filled with superb bright sun.There were no dark clouds at all,as in at all at all!Sometimes it can be bright sunny as hell and then cloudy like meatballs after an hour.Wait,why am i bitching about the weather o.o

i cannot understand myself already....

Ask me questions!

ask me questions at http://www.formspring.me/tranceoxide

Moment

When is it
is it that moment?
or that moment?
maybe its that moment

no its another moment
its not that moment
its that moment!
is it that moment?

when is it?

迷失

我，迷失了
一个人在一望无际的草原上
迷失了方向
一切都变得好模糊
我瞭望的，看到的，专注的。。是什么？

什么时候开始
好像有人闯进这个寂寞孤独空间
多了一个人
会比较快乐吗？

什么时候开始
我有了这种感觉
我开始对它有了恐惧
是因为最后一次有这种感觉时
我跌得太深了吗？

模糊，混乱与矛盾。。

Closed

tranceoxide blog is temporary CLOSED due to low numbers of viewers and lost to a better blog which is..Facebook!

Day.6

Day.6 Iphone
"The most expensive phone i ever bought since i came to planet earth"

Day 5.Eruption

"Day 5 of year AD2010,the first volcanic eruption ever occur in Singapore"

Day.4

Day.4 Coffaayy!
"My fave drink from starbucks,the legendary Mocha Frap"

Day 3

Day.3 "lazy moments"

As the title said,im just being lazy

Dark Moments

Day 2. Dark Moments
Canon 50D & 55-250

"there are the bright times
and the dark moments in life
where souls perish
and life went dead end"