bad news

Bad news,real bad news.Never in my mind appears that one day i`m going to blog about this.Early in the morning of 28.02.09,last day of fucking Feb.I opened my inbox and saw a mail from singapore poly,yes i`m not going to caps it,i usually wont use caps for those i dont pay respect to.eg.brunei.

Fuck!!dammm fucked up! i spent one whole fucking year waiting for it and now this is what i get.more than 365days,more than a patience you can find in me,i placed my dreams upon it,waited and waited.Every moment when i have to be reminded that i wasted one year,god cant understand the pain and suffer brought on me.It only sits there and watch with a XL popcorn in hand and laugh at all humans.What are those prayers for? a review?jokes?or scripts?

Studying in Singapore is my dream,all along it is but destiny rebels,luck rebels,god rebels.Architecture is my dream,but i guess i can never fullfill it anymore.No,its not that i cant,its..there's no chances for me.Dreams ruined!I`m going to burn all my sketches and ideas,may it never exist in human history.No one `ll ever have the chance to steal it from me,they`re mine not you copycat's.

Fuck destiny,fuck luck,fuck life and fuck god!Useless pathetic shit.Destiny and god,you`ll have to pay the price for slashing my path and dreams.There are humans who are gifted,you know and you understand.People who are gifted with The Laws.Things have pros and cons,it can be done for good and it can be use against you,and now shall i?maybe i`m meant to use what im gifted,thats why there is a word 'Human are created for a reason or,reasons'

Im my life,what do i have? loves?wealth?family?relationship?destiny? none of them i guess.There's only me and myself...Talents and Me,one of the gifts but so what,i may can have everything in my life except for luck.One day i stand on earth,until the last breathe i`ll hold a grudge on you,i`ll use it against you.You shall face the consequences and be cursed by your own Laws.

Starlight, starlight, burning bright
You shall be witness to the slaughter tonight
When you dance with the devil, there's hell to pay
When the world will be mine your death should be quick and painless

shit!

Product name : Ting Sen Ern
Best Before : 01.03.09

As what stated above,I expires after this sunday! To my dear batangs and lubangs,please treasure me and use before sunday, i have only 2 more days left until i became an illegal migrants! I need to get out of brunei before 1st of march! but my dad went overseas wth.Damm i`m out of words== i hate this,not good at writing.Nevermind forget it,post ended! goodbye~

七年

我们之间是什么？
永远都解释不了。。
跟你相处的越快乐，我越难过
一次又一次的心痛
一次又一次的失望

爱。，我还能再爱你吗？
恨。，还有恨吗？
或许，我永远也没办法恨你
也许，我永远也没办法原谅你

多么希望我不曾遇见你
多么希望我可以无情
多么希望我们可以。相爱
怎么可能。。

又有谁能取代，
那抱着你的感觉
那吻你的感觉
那，段时光。。

我的心，还能承受多少次的痛与失望
永远也没办法
怎么可能
那些感觉

你可以错了再错，我也可以痛了再痛
只要你，还在这世上。。
要不是因为太爱一个人，不会如此痛苦
如果不是因为痛苦，又何必这么恨一个人

忘了吗？ 永远不会
但是，永远也不希望想起
请记得，我曾深深的爱过你。

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张栋梁-错了再错


退到了绝境再 退破碎到不能破碎
能挽回什么 你就不肯说
我只能猜疑却都错
泪水灌溉这伤悲 绝望是你赐给的安慰
为何你说谎 我却受惩罚
你不如就用刀刺下
我可以痛了再痛 你可以错了再错
不甘心 不闪躲 只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你换着活 你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破

爱或痛彼此纠结 悲和我无法分解
厌倦的疲累 成了一片黑
伤痛都已无法消灭
泪水滋润着泪水 背叛是你另一种慰藉
完美的借口 泪无辜留下
你不如用乱箭射吧
即使我头也不回 这悲剧猛向我追
情愿你全部摧毁 别留着燎原的火堆
给你的自由将我吞没
给我的爱像一根绳索
你放手却捆住了我
不甘心不闪躲 全为了失真的承诺
为什么连谎言你也给刺破
为什么连谎言你也不说

Introduce..*updated

I`ve mentioned in the previous post that it will be continued but i forgot what i`m suppose to write already,so forget it~ And i think im abnormal lately,i feel down and it recovers sometimes.Its like there is something in my heart which cant go up or down,its stuck!!Something is going to happen,yea,a feeling of something bad is going to happen.It's going to stop me again,block my path and destroy things.Dont..no more precognitions..not the devils.

Okay i think i better get to the topic.In this post im going to introduce my future wife.Shocked right? i have the thoughts of getting married at the age of 18! OMG! Well,not only me,Jenny bong too!! Stop for a moment,dont get the wrong idea.I`m not marrying her.My future wife's name starts with G not J and her name is..
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Lamborghini Gallardo LP560-4!!

sexyyy right!!!~

STOP!! dont look at my wife's sexy butt!
I`m gonna earn $800,000 and buy her!!!then announce bankrupt~

And bong's husband`ll be..
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a bettle!!!

And then she`ll be named as Bettle Bong~

_________Sequence which will happen in future________
*bell ringing
Pastor : ''Ting Sen Ern,are you willing to take Lamborghini Gallardo LP560-4 as your wife,love her ,wash her and maintain her for life?''
Me : '' I do~''
Pastor : ''Lamborghini Gallardo LP560-4,are you willing to accept Ting Sen Ern as your owner forever?''
Gallardo : *HONKS!!!!~~~
Pastor :'' I now pronounce you man and car!''

~end~

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Suprise!! I`m blogging!! first of all i would like to thanks almost all of my readers for not tagging which made me thinks that nobody reads my blog.But still thank you all for stopping by=)

Okay,for those who dont know this yet,my brunei line has been barred by DST and the only solution is to get a new line which cost $30 and a credit of 5==sibeh expensive lor!In Singapore,i can get to buy a top-up card which cost $25 and there are $128 credit inside!!!!!!And whenever i sent 5 international messages they free me 50!DST please head to the sea thank you.

Few days ago,i saw a pretty bbq pork!!...but..

To be continue

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Revived!

Ladies and Gentlemens! Welcome me~I`m back!=D I bet its been a long time since you guys visited tranceoxide.blogspot.com and only lulu misses me,others go and jump thank you~.Wonder if i still have loyal readers or not.Anyways,i havent get bored of Brunei 'yet'.Gatherings was great,its nice to have lots of friend around.And dvds!They cures boredom.

I forgot what to blog already,have lots of things in mind yesterday but its blank now.Nevermind,it`ll be carried fowarded to the next post.Now i`m going to post what i`ve done this noon.

tranceoxide presents you..

wow!The picrure isnt uploading==
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wth~~
Finally!!!~

My art!!~
Original art by IvikN
Thank you and come back again:)